For the love of my Lord..

Yaaaayyyy.. finally today I go to church 30minutes before the mass start and I feel so happy. Hehehe..
And start today I will start to draw again in my diary!! I don't know whether it could last forever or not. But I have decided, since my drawing feels little uglier than back then.
Today best quote is, "My life is not flat at all. It's so rich of emotions, experiences and memories, good and bad, and I thankful for that. Because it creates who am I today." And the most important thing is it makes me wiser. For You my Lord, what I become.

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Wish I want to fulfil..._†_(-人-。)

Well, at this point my wish is just to be in a place where everyone is so passionate about building and creating new things. And We're enjoying the work immensely.

Have family that supporting me, happy around me, grateful to be in a place where I belong and live till it fullest.

And, have 3 boys in my future family... hahhaha...(　o´∀)ノ

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Book Review : The Magic..

Well, looks like I haven't told anyone before how I love reading a books. Especially about dreams come true, relationship and sometimes-but it's so rarely since I felt guilty when read about superstition because it's banned from Bible-feng shui..

So, this is the third books from Rhonda Byrne. The first is "The Secret", second is "The Power" and the third is "The Magic". 

The Secret told us about "The Law of Attraction", what we think is what we gonna be. Actually this theory is not new to me, since I was in senior high school I have knew it and maybe some unconsciously applied it. At that time I know that when we thought, said, and believed so much about some affirmation, that affirmation would becoming true.

The Power told us about what is the most powerful thing in the world, LOVE. When you do it with love, you would have tremendous energy to do it.

And The Magic, is about gratitude. About how we change our life through a simple words,  Thank You. Actually this book is a 28-days step to graceful life. Everyday you must read one chapter and doing it until you feel that your life changes for better. 

I have read the few first chapters, but at some point it becomes too many grateful things to do and I just can't do it everyday. so sad. But, I'm still doing it, the easy ones.. hahhaha.. 

Like every night before sleep, say thank you for the best thing that happen today. And every time see photo of your lovely friends, see their face and say "Thank you (their name)" for what they did to you and feel grateful for it sincerely since we grow because of them. 

And say, "Thank You, the magic of health is keeping me alive" as your grateful for your health. I love how Rhonda describe this magic of health. Every time I read this phrase, I'm spinning my body around, as feels my feet that makes me could walk freely everywhere, feels my hand, my finger that can play piano, draw manga, write, type and so on, feels my body that so healthy, allow me to do everything I want. It just makes me so truly grateful.

And when I buy something, I take its note and write "Thank you-paid" as your grateful that you could buy the things I need or want. And my favorite thing is, I wrote on a paper, "Thank you for all the money I have been given throughout my Life", then sticked it in a bills, one bill on my desk and the other one on my wallet. Then every time I pass my desk or I open my wallet, I touch the bill, read it, and feel so grateful about it.

In my desk, I sticked a paper with "Thank You, the magic of health is keeping me alive" written on it. And there was a time, a couple weeks ago that my bill on my desk is disappear. I am so sad! Truly, everyday I see it, touch it, before I go to campus and it's disappear?!!! Even though I was sad, I kept say that words. And then one day-I don't quite sure if it just me who try to manipulate the truth of this theory,but-my Grandma just give me Rp.20.000,- bill, the same amount which I lost it. My Grandma hasn't gave me any pocket money since I graduated, so it was so wonderful that she gave me the thing I want.

But when I was sad because my money disappear, I told it to my friends on my chat group. My friend, Nanin, said that I am kind of cute doing things like this and decided to follow it too. But, my friend Febrina asked, "Is it really working?" *the charm, the doing of grateful things..

At that time, I just shocked and I can't say a word. Then I thought, "hahhaha... it must be really awkward, since I can prove it but I just do it. *do the sticking grateful phrase on the bill. Feels like I do it without thinking, just fooling around, feels like I have lost my logic or something like that..". 

But I kept doing it, hahahhaha... Rhonda has said that it is the theory which you can find in Bible, Quran, Budhist and so on, so why mustn't I do it? But, the thing I found was the truth that I do it but don't believe it. That's why I can't answer that question! 

Matthew 13:12 Whoever has (gratitude) will be given more, and they will have an abundance. Whoever does not have (gratitude), even what they have will be taken from them.

Jesus said "thank you" before He performed each miracle. 

Gratitude for the abundance you have received is the best insurance that the abundance will continue. -Prophet Muhammad 

I remember Mr. John Assaraf story about our mind, he told us: "There's 5 frogs siting on a cliff, one of them decided to jump. So now, how many frog is remain?". Do you know how many? The answer is 5, because that frog is just decide, but not jump!

That's why the truth came out that, I do it, but I just decide to believe it, haven't believe it. And it makes me realizes, that's why my life just so so, because I do it, and I do it not consistent enough, and now I realize that I still haven't believe it. *Even though it still gets the effects, because it's the law, it is how its work.

Well, this time I have something that I desperately want it to be fulfilled. So, I pray for it, ask Him for it, I believe it, I give all I have and used every secret and magic from ms Rhonda said and every things. And I will write to you, when the time comes. 

Thank You for reading this outpouring of my heart, thank you, thank you, thank you.

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Yaaayy,, meet new friend.. (´∇ﾉ｀*)ノ

If you do not try, you already fail like those who tried and fail.

But, you do not have the possibility and opportunity to succeed like those who try.

Just try, is it that difficult?

Mario Teguh 

Well, today i just read this quote from Mr. Mario Teguh's facebook status and loved it!! It reminds me of my experience couple days ago. Really, maybe it's just ordinary thing. But for me it's wonderful experience!!! hahahahha...(((o(*ﾟ▽ﾟ*)o)))

So last week, i got one week holiday from my campus and i went to Jakarta! It's not ordinary holiday, because i had so much to-do-list to be done! Like :

• Visiting my Auntie *she has already sick since last month!
• Dancing on the ice with my Prince and Friends!
• Eat Domino's Pizza * actually there's Domino here, but i just want eat it there.. ~(=^‥^)_旦~
• Editing my bank account.
• Swimming together with my cousin and my friends.
• Talking with Bule!! hahahhaha...^(#｀∀´)_Ψ
• Went to my ex-office.
• Having dinner with my Jakarta's friends..(((*°▽°*)八(*°▽°*)))♪
• Code!!!

And all the list have been done, except "Talking with Bule".. i do talked with Germany Foreign but it  just said hi and i was so stupid, greeted him, "morning" when it was evening!! ━Σ(ﾟДﾟ|||)━

And when the time to went back home was coming, i am so happy because finally i was able to go by plane with only bring one lady bag!!! Yaaaayyyy.... (*≧▽≦)ﾉｼ)) but, i went to the airport alone from Gambir because my Prince hasn't came from his work yet. And we agreed to meet at Cengkareng, Soekarno-Hatta Airport to have dinner together. Unfortunately, when i arrived there he called me that he got lost. And if he tried to go to the airport, we couldn't meet because my plane was at 20.05 and that was at 18.00 already *we thought that we needed 2hours from his lost place to the airport. (╥_╥)

Roti'O

And then i went to waiting room, i decided to sit on a chair where there was an asean woman sat alone. Because at the others chairs, the one who sat there was a man. I didn't want to sit beside unknown man, feels scary. So i sat beside her and started played my HTC.

Then i went to buy 3 pack of Roti'O - i thought it was for me, my Mom and my Dad when i arrived at home. I haven't had my luch that time so i felt so HUNGRY!!! (； T.T))

When i went back to my chair, i saw the asean woman beside me was played with her iPad and (from what i saw i thought that) she opened a web where the writing are in hiragana!

Suddenly i felt so happy and greeted her, "Nihon des ka?" and then she answered "hai, nihon?" and then we started (played?) sign to talk with each other. We used 3 language to talk, english, japanese, indonesia and when we couldn't find a right words to answer. Our face could showed it and we started laugh each others. it was very funny experience.

the best part of it was when i offered her Roti'o, she liked "is it ok?" *with japanese language and i said "it's fine..it's fine.. haraheta, haraheta.. itadakimass.. " and started eat. And she laughed, i thought it must be so funny if some foreign said something like "selamat makan" before eat.

And then we talked so much, i asked her "anata wa doko e ikimasu?" (*thanks Bro..hahaha..) she said Denpasar, waw, she told me that she was actually a Balinese Dancer  and this is the 10th times she went to Denpasar, but that time she was coming alone because next Wednesday is holiday at japan and her husband went to Hongkong with his friends tomorrow!! Waw.. what a Life...

i asked her, why does she learn Balinese dance? she said that at that time, she wanted to start learning something new and to exercise too. So there was brochure of Balinese Dance Course on her office and she just loved it because she thought it was so beautiful and her teacher was so nice.  She has learned it for the last 9-10 years. Her teacher is japanese but lived at Ubud, Bali, so she used skype to learn Balinese dance 2 hours each weeks (from Tokyo-Denpasar). "Waw.. there's really someone who use skype for this! Passing 2 country just for dance! Waw.. looks like i meet not ordinary person" just told my self.

I asked her what is her profession, and she told me that she was a secretary for his husband. Since his husband is a bos on his company. His company is a piping installation for gas, water and so on. And her some is at Nagino, but her office is at Tokyo *she said because in Tokyo there're so many buildings. I asked her, "Nagino - Tokyo everyday?" and she said "yes, Nagino-Tokyo is one hour with Shinkanzen". I said, "Waw, shinkanzen's ticket is half of my payment for one month!!! And you ride it everyday???" ∑(O_O；) Then she said, but she buy a monthly shinkanzen's ticket so it's cheaper. *i think she just want to cheer me up, hahahha...

Then she showed me her photos when she was going to perform Bali dance at Pura in Japan. And she showed her husband photo when she was at Malaysia riding a Becak. then i asked her, "Waw, you like travelling a lot?" "yeah, i love travel" "how many country have you visited?" she said "shirti" "ha?" i din't too get it and she said, "tiga puluh" w(°ｏ°)w woooooooowwwwwww..... i do really meet extra ordinary person!!!

And when it was almost her plane's boarding time, she asked me my email and promised me to email me when she arrived at her hotel, because at that time my handphone was lacked so i couldn't add her skype account. Oh ya, she gave me this, candy!! (ﾉﾟ0ﾟ)ﾉ~

Today i ate it with my friends, actually it's like Yuppy candy but at first you eat it, it's ssoooooooooo souuuuurrrrr... But after that sour phase, it feels so sweet... Love it!! ♡(´～｀*)♡ Arigato Atsuko San...

Then when i rethink it now if at that time i don't try to talk to her, maybe we just stay be a stranger. But because i try it, we become friends (ღ˘⌣˘ღ). Ah, i want to try many others things.. i want to meet with  people around the world!! Ah, one thing, at first, looks like i got bad luck because my Prince can't accompanied me and i am alone at air port, but then it's started to be a good thing and experience! Praise The Lord, His plans is awesome!! 

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Be Confident and Positive!!

It's just a simple words which i love to say as affirmative, coz i lack it. So today i went to my dentist (i should went there months ago, but i just too busy *lazy till today), it's rainy day and i thought because it is raining, there'll be no other patient except me? (who's gonna bother went to dentist when it's raining). And that's true, i just the first and only patient there when i arrive... feels so lucky.

I came at 07.15 PM and i do believe it finished at 07.30 PM, but it started to rain very hard and then we just talking about anything. And i asked, wonder how did she ended as a dentist? She said that when she was high school girl, she really didn't expect to be a dentist. She want to be an architect that time, but she looked at her friends and feels little scare than she turn down her wish as an architect. And at that time, her mom just wished her to be a doctor. So she decided to be a doctor. But because she knew her rivals were great students, she decided to choose the second option which is "a doctor of tooth (dentist)" or "a doctor of animal (veterinarian)". And finally she accepted in dentist major. Well actually she signed up for other major at others university which was economic major, but didn't accepted even though she sure enough that she answered the test easily than the doctor's test. We can see that Parent's prayer does really work like a charm, which is looks like it happened in me too.

And then she talked about her daughter, her first baby is a girl. Her daughter was a passive and shy girl since she was a little. And when she was 5 until elementary school, she was always being bullied by her friends. Like when she tried to approach her friends, her friends scattered away from her. She ever leaved alone at the garden, while her friends used her bicycle away from her. I couldn't imagine such a kid ever felt something like this, waw!!

I remembered when i was 5, i was pushed by my teacher to apologize to my friend who crying because i angry with her since she bully my friend. hahaha... *i even can't remind it how did that happened and why did that happened. And when i was at elementary school i remember i punched my friend *boy on her face just because he bullied me when i played a "win and lose" game with my friend till he cry!! Man, i know i just so ... hmmm.... even i can't name it...

So, back to topic. Her daughter named Gita, finally had a chance to change because of her teacher at elementary school choose her to be a MC at separation party. We ended our elementary school at sixth grade, and usually we would when together as class to celebrate separation at other city. Her teacher was my courses teacher when i was 6th grade too.

Her mom always told her to be brave and to have a achievement, because friends will come when we achieve something and no one will bully us when we are brave.

So when she went home that day and told her mom about she was being picked up to be a MC for the separation party, her mom give her a planning about what should she said at the separation party *as MC of course. And she told me that it was a great success till her teacher feels so proud of her and hug her. WAW!!

And since that she became a friendly, active person and even she is a presenter radio and local television now! Waw.. Mrs Ferry told me about her daughter feeing that time, she said that "i know mom when my teacher picked me in front of the class as a MC, my friends just agreed it to bully me. But i know that i can do it, i want to show it to them."

Love it,  i just felt that i learnt a lots today. To review my self and correct it, since i know i need to be more confident and brave than i am today. And she told me one thing that she proud of her daughter is that because her daughter never see a negative at a person, she choose to prove to others that what (bad things) they said to her is wrong, and she could do better.

Reminds me the quote i love, "I know you are better than this!" *Puss in boots

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First Gathering

First gathering of the year, finally we gathered at "Happy Puppy, Karaoke Keluarga" at JL HR Muhammad 73B Surabaya 60226. It was lot of fun, since we haven't meet so long and we have a lot of story to tell. I am so grateful have them in my life, because i can honestly be my self and still accepted for the who i am. Even though i have lot of lacks and negative side, they makes me grow.

Yaaayyyyy... i meet Red Ford Fiesta!!! Lucky, lucky, this is my future car... amen, amen... (ノ＞▽＜。)ノ

But, the best part of it is at dinner time... (ღ˘⌣˘ღ) ♫･*:.｡. .｡.:*･ hahahhaha... Human always happy when they are full...

At that day, i accompanied Ica to fix her BB at Plaza Marina. When we was there, we meet with a Lady who was a customer of BB too. Later we found out that she graduated from public health major from Airlangga University. Then she talked about her early year as graduated student, she worked as a social worker for WHO. Waaawww.... feel so amazed by her, why do that kind of world never touched by me? I just wishing that when i graduated my training now, i am able experience that too.. ameeennn...

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Inner Beauty?

And I spent my last holiday at 2012, for cleaning my room!! Since I have leave it for almost 10 months in early 2012 and haven’t cleaned it yet, so this holiday is so meaningful for clean it. And I found this, article from my old magazine. Just so sad how I have read it many years ago and still I didn’t do it.

There are 10 points that important, as you see from the title… :p

1.  Focus on our talent, try to acknowledge our talent and show our grateful with developing it.
2. Open our minds*, should know what happen in our surrounding. Even when we are busy, we should know what ‘s on trade now because it makes us easier to talk with others.
3. Eliminating envy, when we envy to someone, it make our relation less cordial to that person. How could we show our inner beauty when we become so evil-not genial person?
4. Stop complain, keep grateful for what we receive. People hate negative person.
5. Set your mood, when we get a bad mood, we makes a problem easily. So, take control of your mood. DO NOT SHARE IT to others, like Mr. Dale Carnegie said: “don’t give a rotten apple to others”.
6. Smile please, smile is the easiest way to show sincere and beauty of our heart.
7. Stand up straight, our body posture is better when we are stand up straight. And also, it shows that we are confident.
8. Wear a sober make up, less is more. Natural is better.
9. Stay tidy, this is the most difficult thing to do from those points. We don’t need to be a “fashion victims”, BUT at least, our shoelace is tied, our dress has no holes, and our hair was combed. My friends ever scolded me because my hair was messy and my face was oily and sweaty like person who didn’t take a bath on the morning. And since then I always comb my hair whenever I arrive at destination, clean my face and smells my self. Hahhaha…
10. Keep clean, when we feels clean, we feel more confident and comfy which makes others happy when they with us. Clean here means, our teeth, our hair, our face, our body, our clothes, our bags, our shoes and the other things.

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Stop and Think!!!

This morning i told my friend that i feel there's something wrong with me!! Like, feels bored, so-so, and  have nothing to do, just sleep, watch tv and .... ヽ(ー_ー )ノ (´～｀；） ┐('～`；)┌ 

I told him, "whenever i watch tv, National Geographic, Discovery Chanel, DW... at the episode of invention to help known nature better, makes me want to be one of them. The one who could share their knowledge for everyone around the world. Could tell the world because they master it. But why, even if i have that big dreams i just lost my urges to pursue it???!!! (ﾟﾉД｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡ ヽ(´□｀。)ﾉ (ﾟ´Д｀ﾟ)ﾟ"

My friend told me that it's the sign of passion lost.. ━Σ(ﾟДﾟ|||)━ Σ(゜ロ゜;) (*ﾟﾛﾟ) (」゜ロ゜)」NOOOOOOoooooooooooo.... it's absolutely bad!!! That's why after that i wake up and cleaning my house!!  ( ；｀ヘ´)  

You may confuse why i do that? it's because to work my body and mind, to responsible with what i have and grateful for it with keep them clean. 且_(ﾟ◇ﾟ；)ノﾞ 

• John Assaraf
  
  
  If you go to work on your goals, your goals will go to work on you. If you go to work on your plan, your plan will go to work on you. Whatever good things we build end up building us. ~ Jim Rohn 
• Happy Friday friends! Here's a success tip: In addition to having the right mindset ( beliefs, habits, perceptions ), you also must also apply the right strategies ( what to do ) and tactics ( how specifically ) everyday. Add to that the right support ( people, systems and process ) and you have a formula for success!
  

Those quotes are Mr John Assaraf facebook's status, i love it! The first one says that "Whatever good things we build end up building us" i like to translate it as "what you do, define you" so if i do good, i get good result!

Second means that i must determined what is my strategies, tactics, support and keep my mindset to pursuing my dream. It's in my mind, heart and act!!! So, tomorrow i m going to my brother in law to ask for help me arrange my strategies and tactics to pursue that dream!!!  ヽ(*≧ω≦)ﾉ  *(*´∀｀*)

And i turn my self urger because of this : How I have attracted My Husband using The Law of Attraction hahahha,, it's not i want to attract my Husband too...（*/∇＼*）It's just that this person story remind me of the ME when I have urges to reach my dreams, that's why it give my excitement and new will to fulfil my old dreams.  “ψ(｀∇´)ψ 

Well, let's see tomorrow.. how is my new strategies and tactics, i have set my mindset to make universe manifest my dreams.  (((o(*ﾟ▽ﾟ*)o))) ☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆

Oh ya, as you know this year i apply for ADS and last saturday i get the result. And i failed this year. That's why this picture just perfect for it and for my new strategies and tactics. ～(^з^)-☆ 

 And this one is so nice for mindset... from Mr John Assaraf and from Love Jesus... o(≧∇≦o) 

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