Time just passed by..

Can't believe my new habit that I breed when I was at my internship program are now totally disappear!!!

When I was at intern, I wake up at 5 am and sleep at 10-11pm. And now it is gone!! I turn back to someone who sleep at 1 am and wake up 8-9am. It's not good at all!!! I must meet with my lecture before 3 pm and I just let the time slipped away in sleep.

Tomorrow I must wake up at 4.30 am and go to Church!!! And run!! Hahaha.. and make this a habit!!

Well let's see tomorrow..

By the way I like this quote:
"Little faith says, 'God can do it'. Big faith says, 'God will do it'. But Great faith says, 'IT IS DONE! For nothing is impossible with God'!!!"

c u tomorrow.

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For the love of my Lord..

Yaaaayyyy.. finally today I go to church 30minutes before the mass start and I feel so happy. Hehehe..
And start today I will start to draw again in my diary!! I don't know whether it could last forever or not. But I have decided, since my drawing feels little uglier than back then.
Today best quote is, "My life is not flat at all. It's so rich of emotions, experiences and memories, good and bad, and I thankful for that. Because it creates who am I today." And the most important thing is it makes me wiser. For You my Lord, what I become.

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How deep is your love?【・ヘ・?】

Happy sunday..

I wake up 04.55 am this morning because I want to go to Church to pray, that start at 05.30 am. It's not too early morning, but I have wake up late lately. That is why it feels kind of difficult. But I wake up early enough this morning, it's enough for 15 minutes take a bath, 15 minutes journey from home to the Church. Unfortunately, I take bath for more than 15 minutes, and I arrive at the Church-not very late, but it is late enough-when the first reading was being read.

And today Gospel Reading is about what pray should we say?(Luke 11:1-13)

Luke 11:1-13

New International Version (NIV)

Jesus’ Teaching on Prayer

11 One day Jesus was praying in a certain place. When he finished, one of his disciples said to him, “Lord, teach us to pray, just as John taught his disciples.”

2 He said to them, “When you pray, say:

“‘Father,[a]
hallowed be your name,
your kingdom come.[b]
3 Give us each day our daily bread.
4 Forgive us our sins,
    for we also forgive everyone who sins against us.[c]
And lead us not into temptation.[d]’”

5 Then Jesus said to them, “Suppose you have a friend, and you go to him at midnight and say, ‘Friend, lend me three loaves of bread; 6 a friend of mine on a journey has come to me, and I have no food to offer him.’ 7 And suppose the one inside answers, ‘Don’t bother me. The door is already locked, and my children and I are in bed. I can’t get up and give you anything.’ 8 I tell you, even though he will not get up and give you the bread because of friendship, yet because of your shameless audacity[e] he will surely get up and give you as much as you need.

9 “So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 10 For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.
11 “Which of you fathers, if your son asks for[f] a fish, will give him a snake instead? 12 Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? 13 If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!”

I love this reading so much, especially this quotes "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you." But today, my Romo (Pastor) emphasise not in that quotes, but in the prayer. Pray as a shape of our love to Our Lord, conversation between us and Him. The main point is LOVE, do we always pray as an expression of love to Him?

But the expression of love to him, is not only on prayer but also when we go to Church. If you are going to meet your dear Lover, will you be late? If you talk to your dear, would you want it to be done quickly?

Waw, today I just get slapped and realise how little is my love for my dearest Lord. That is why, start from now on. When I want to go to Church I am going to wake up one hour and depart 30 minutes before the Mass start!!! Definitely!!! へ（>_<へ)

Because I have embarrassed enough to death this morning!!!

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Dear Friends..

Well, tomorrow is my last day in Jakarta and I want to meet my friends before-I don't know when I could meet them again, since I haven't planned to Jakarta again this year. And since today is month of fasting for Moslem, it's predicted to be so crowd in mall at breakfast time.
So I take a responsibility to book a place for them for breakfasting. Because I choose the nearest place from my Causin's home to meet. Unfortunately the place I choose doesn't receive any booking. Means that I must wait and make an order there-that time-if I want to eat there at breakfasting time. And that means I must wait approximately 45minutes. There, alone, in the table for 5 people.

Then the breakfasting time is in, and I have waited but no one comes, till I wait for more than one hour..
I feel so embarrassing, because until the breakfasting hours has passed, no one comes.

And feels so stupid, and I hate the fact that it feels like it just me who want to meet them. Luckily, my Prince would like to accompany me by phone. He call me and feels sorry that he can't come. And that time I just want to cry, I want to go home coz the embarrassment. But if I go home I feel like I'm lying to the maid. That's why I keep waiting and waiting. With sad and anger of disappointment, I said to my Prince, "ah, I dont want to meet them again. I won't invite them again. If I want to meet them, then I just go to their place, even that means I can't gather them together. Better than wait for them with uncertainty and alone!!"

But my Prince said, "even when you said something like that now. I know you'll be happy when you meet them."

But I can't believe it. I don't want to accept it.

And they come, and we talk. It's not a funny talk like we always have. But, ayang Oland is right. I just happy I meet them. After I waited for more than 2 hours alone!! Can't believe that they are very dear for me!! Even after makes me embarrassed for more than 2 hours!!!

Thank You my Lord I didn't stop waiting for them.

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