How deep is your love?【・ヘ・?】

Happy sunday..

I wake up 04.55 am this morning because I want to go to Church to pray, that start at 05.30 am. It's not too early morning, but I have wake up late lately. That is why it feels kind of difficult. But I wake up early enough this morning, it's enough for 15 minutes take a bath, 15 minutes journey from home to the Church. Unfortunately, I take bath for more than 15 minutes, and I arrive at the Church-not very late, but it is late enough-when the first reading was being read.

And today Gospel Reading is about what pray should we say?(Luke 11:1-13)

Luke 11:1-13

New International Version (NIV)

Jesus’ Teaching on Prayer

11 One day Jesus was praying in a certain place. When he finished, one of his disciples said to him, “Lord, teach us to pray, just as John taught his disciples.”

2 He said to them, “When you pray, say:

“‘Father,[a]
hallowed be your name,
your kingdom come.[b]
3 Give us each day our daily bread.
4 Forgive us our sins,
    for we also forgive everyone who sins against us.[c]
And lead us not into temptation.[d]’”

5 Then Jesus said to them, “Suppose you have a friend, and you go to him at midnight and say, ‘Friend, lend me three loaves of bread; 6 a friend of mine on a journey has come to me, and I have no food to offer him.’ 7 And suppose the one inside answers, ‘Don’t bother me. The door is already locked, and my children and I are in bed. I can’t get up and give you anything.’ 8 I tell you, even though he will not get up and give you the bread because of friendship, yet because of your shameless audacity[e] he will surely get up and give you as much as you need.

9 “So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 10 For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.
11 “Which of you fathers, if your son asks for[f] a fish, will give him a snake instead? 12 Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? 13 If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!”

I love this reading so much, especially this quotes "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you." But today, my Romo (Pastor) emphasise not in that quotes, but in the prayer. Pray as a shape of our love to Our Lord, conversation between us and Him. The main point is LOVE, do we always pray as an expression of love to Him?

But the expression of love to him, is not only on prayer but also when we go to Church. If you are going to meet your dear Lover, will you be late? If you talk to your dear, would you want it to be done quickly?

Waw, today I just get slapped and realise how little is my love for my dearest Lord. That is why, start from now on. When I want to go to Church I am going to wake up one hour and depart 30 minutes before the Mass start!!! Definitely!!! へ（>_<へ)

Because I have embarrassed enough to death this morning!!!

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Dear Friends..

Well, tomorrow is my last day in Jakarta and I want to meet my friends before-I don't know when I could meet them again, since I haven't planned to Jakarta again this year. And since today is month of fasting for Moslem, it's predicted to be so crowd in mall at breakfast time.
So I take a responsibility to book a place for them for breakfasting. Because I choose the nearest place from my Causin's home to meet. Unfortunately the place I choose doesn't receive any booking. Means that I must wait and make an order there-that time-if I want to eat there at breakfasting time. And that means I must wait approximately 45minutes. There, alone, in the table for 5 people.

Then the breakfasting time is in, and I have waited but no one comes, till I wait for more than one hour..
I feel so embarrassing, because until the breakfasting hours has passed, no one comes.

And feels so stupid, and I hate the fact that it feels like it just me who want to meet them. Luckily, my Prince would like to accompany me by phone. He call me and feels sorry that he can't come. And that time I just want to cry, I want to go home coz the embarrassment. But if I go home I feel like I'm lying to the maid. That's why I keep waiting and waiting. With sad and anger of disappointment, I said to my Prince, "ah, I dont want to meet them again. I won't invite them again. If I want to meet them, then I just go to their place, even that means I can't gather them together. Better than wait for them with uncertainty and alone!!"

But my Prince said, "even when you said something like that now. I know you'll be happy when you meet them."

But I can't believe it. I don't want to accept it.

And they come, and we talk. It's not a funny talk like we always have. But, ayang Oland is right. I just happy I meet them. After I waited for more than 2 hours alone!! Can't believe that they are very dear for me!! Even after makes me embarrassed for more than 2 hours!!!

Thank You my Lord I didn't stop waiting for them.

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Human is strong..

Well, since last Monday I have been an apprentice at Jakarta. I stay at my cousin's home which is 16km away from the office where I work. So I must ride bus Trans Jakarta to go there from my cousin's home. And everyday I go home, I never get a sit till half of my journey. And It's very tough!! The bus is so full and I must stay balancing its move. I'm so really really lucky that I can sit. Despite of how hard it is, I still amaze of the human's power.

Remind me of my Mom's saying, "susah karena belum terbiasa, kalau sudah biasa ya mudah."
Hmmm... But I keep this piece of puzzle to motivate me to reach a better life. And after a long journey like this, always give me a wake up call of how big people have struggled so much to reach their position now..

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Quote of the day

I am looking for a fighter. The one that I can ask to, "What do you think about it?"
-Tony Fernandez
The Apprentice Asia 2013 Host.

Group Chief Executive Officer, AirAsia. Tan Sri Dr. Tony Fernandes has a personal credo -"Believe the unbelievable. Dream the impossible. Never take no for an answer". He graduated from Epsom College, UK, London School of Economics and has been the Group CEO of AirAsia since December 2001.

Prior to AirAsia, he was the Financial Controller of Virgin Communications London before joining Warner Music International London in 1989. He was promoted to Managing Director, Warner Music Malaysia in 1992 and to Regional Managing Director, ASEAN, Warner Music South East Asia in 1996. In 1999, he became the Vice President of Warner Music South East Asia.

Amongst the many awards Tony has received, the most recent award is: Honor of the Commander of the Order of the British Empire by Her Majesty Queen Elizabeth II, conferred on him for services to promote commercial and educational links between the UK and Malaysia. He was named as one of the world's most creative people in business for 2011 by New York-based business magazine Fast Company, and awarded the Inaugural ‘Travel Business Leaders Award’ winner by CNBC.

Tony: To be my Apprentice, you need a high level of business acumen, and that includes managing risks, and making sound investment decisions, often under tremendous pressure.

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Dating... (/∀＼*)

Awawawaw... Do you know? My first job after graduated is as mobile app developer in Jakarta, so I moved to Jakarta. Six months later, watashi no koibito graduated and worked at Yamaha in Jakarta. At that time my Sister worked 2km away from my office, so I visited her regularly and we liked to hang out together with my Boyfriend. But time passed and now I basically work in Surabaya, my Sister in Osaka and my Boyfriend in Jakarta.

But it's a lucky thing that today I am an apprentice in Jakarta for one months. That is why now I am at Jakarta, and I can have a date with my Boyfriend.

Happy? Absolutely..

But the most "Waw" moment today is when my Sist chatted me and said that she miss us, remind us when we ate burger/chicken/pancake together. For me, it's a wake up call. Warning me how fast time passed away and how precious is now, for our future! Even eat a pancake can be so a lovely treasure.

Thanks to technology that can save that precious moments for the eternity. Thank you, thank you, thank you, that my life is so wonderful and full of lovely people.

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Essence

Based on Oxford's dictionary means :

es·sence

noun /ˈesəns/  essences, plural The intrinsic nature or indispensable quality of something, esp. something abstract, that determines its character - conflict is the essence of drama A property or group of properties of something without which it would not exist or be what it is Something that exists; in particular, a spiritual entity - the position that names express essences An extract or concentrate obtained from a particular plant or other matter and used for flavoring or scent

Well, a moment ago I just watch this video and amaze. And realize something, which I have been forgetting it for so long.

It reminds me a couple months ago, when I watched a reality show on television, the host said something like this:

"I never believe in Luck. I always think that we are lucky because we have the knowledge to do, to make or etc, in the right time. Let say there's a lottery falling on the ground, if the man who passed that road didn't know it was a lottery, he wouldn't take it, or he even could throw it to garbage bin."

That time I think that's quite true. And I remember some months ago, I found something like this:

"Patient doesn't mean doing nothing, waiting with idly silent. But used everything you have to achieve your dream. As waiting that dreams became reality."

Well, when I think if I am the one who interviewed in that videos, maybe I don't know what to do in "Medical Assistant" interview scene. Looks like I should gain a knowledge about it, and train my courage. hahahha...

Believing is doing, courage is in action!

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Autopilot..

Well, recently I just realize that my life was just going with the flow.. Even I dream many and big, but the truth is, I just let it go, slip away, pass by, and.. regret.

autopilot (a cognitive state in which you act without self-awareness) "she went about her chores on automatic pilot"; "too much of the writing seems to have been done on automatic pilot"; "she talked and he dozed and my mind went on autopilot"

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