Essence

Based on Oxford's dictionary means :

es·sence

noun /ˈesəns/  essences, plural The intrinsic nature or indispensable quality of something, esp. something abstract, that determines its character - conflict is the essence of drama A property or group of properties of something without which it would not exist or be what it is Something that exists; in particular, a spiritual entity - the position that names express essences An extract or concentrate obtained from a particular plant or other matter and used for flavoring or scent

Well, a moment ago I just watch this video and amaze. And realize something, which I have been forgetting it for so long.

It reminds me a couple months ago, when I watched a reality show on television, the host said something like this:

"I never believe in Luck. I always think that we are lucky because we have the knowledge to do, to make or etc, in the right time. Let say there's a lottery falling on the ground, if the man who passed that road didn't know it was a lottery, he wouldn't take it, or he even could throw it to garbage bin."

That time I think that's quite true. And I remember some months ago, I found something like this:

"Patient doesn't mean doing nothing, waiting with idly silent. But used everything you have to achieve your dream. As waiting that dreams became reality."

Well, when I think if I am the one who interviewed in that videos, maybe I don't know what to do in "Medical Assistant" interview scene. Looks like I should gain a knowledge about it, and train my courage. hahahha...

Believing is doing, courage is in action!

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Autopilot..

Well, recently I just realize that my life was just going with the flow.. Even I dream many and big, but the truth is, I just let it go, slip away, pass by, and.. regret.

autopilot (a cognitive state in which you act without self-awareness) "she went about her chores on automatic pilot"; "too much of the writing seems to have been done on automatic pilot"; "she talked and he dozed and my mind went on autopilot"

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Teach is lead..

“The mediocre teacher tells. The good teacher explains. The superior teacher demonstrates. The great teacher inspires.” 

― William Arthur Ward

“In learning you will teach, and in teaching you will learn.” 

― Phil Collins

“Those who know, do. Those that understand, teach.” 

― Aristotle

Because of my training program, I get a chance to teach some kids, which I dear so much when I have know them better in two days. So, I came at Akademi Komunitas Negeri Surabaya to practice my teaching skills. And they gave me this schedule :

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First week  : Preparation before teaching

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Second week :

Monday and Tuesday : Berlian Juliharta

Wednesday and Thursday : Bina Rahayu S.

Friday and Saturday : Wahyu Hany 

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Third week : Submit the syllabus, course meeting plan, moduls and scoring sheets. 

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Fourth week : Last Term Test

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I am really lucky that I have this opportunity, I teach in all fresh graduate high schoolers and we only teach for two days and even the course material is new to me, Design web with CSS3. But it's really so fun! Seriously!!

At first week, we were working very hard to create the practice moduls and presentation file for the theory. Yes, it was so tiring and shocked us, Me, Berli and Hani. But, at the end, when we taught, it really is so fun.

First time in my life, I acknowledge that remembering the names and characters of 23 people is easy! I can't believe it either, but I just can see them and their motives and even their ability! I am so sad, that I must scoring them with numbers. I wish I could tell them what their talents is and what they weakness, better than just number of points.

And the most great things above all is, I still stay in touch with them by social media. :D

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Wish I want to fulfil..._†_(-人-。)

Well, at this point my wish is just to be in a place where everyone is so passionate about building and creating new things. And We're enjoying the work immensely.

Have family that supporting me, happy around me, grateful to be in a place where I belong and live till it fullest.

And, have 3 boys in my future family... hahhaha...(　o´∀)ノ

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Recommendation for a friend..

Write for someone, about them is actually easy. I have write for my BFF birthday note. But, Recommendation is different. It is read with others and it is professional thing. It like what Mr. Donald Trump said,

It's just business, not anything personal

Uwaow.... And I try my best to make it, since 5 years from now, I am going to make it for my students. (´▽｀)ノ♪ It's a wish to be granted.

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Life is really full of surprise... ヾ(*´∇`)ﾉ

"It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling", said Michael Bubble..

Well, my routine everyday-since I found Umano-is listening Umano...(。⌒∇⌒)。 hahahha... There must be some article that so enchanting. Like '8 ways you driving yourself crazy', '7 qualities of highly creative people', 'The world as a classroom', '7 tips to fight the deadly feeling of boredom', etc. And today the most enchanting article is Just an ordinary day : Appreciate the small thing that I have realized it was posted yesterday.ヾ(-_- )ゞ

The article was about women and careers. But what struck me, what made me think about how unappreciative we are of everyday wonder, was a story the author told about her then six-year old daughter:

My daughter came home from school one day and announced that she’d had the best day of her life. When I asked what had happened, she said it was just an ordinary day. I pressed — certainly something different must have occurred? She shook her head. Intrigued, I called her first-grade teachers and asked if anything special had happened in class. No, they repeated, it was just an ordinary day.

“Just an ordinary day.”

That's the reason why I convince myself that today I must smile, because I just like that writer-has a grumpy and mad easily when I went to campus. So, I smile, I sing, I hum, and I say thank you many times. Thank you for my sunny day, my dress, my bag which has arrived-I bought it online, and many more, I have fried noodle with veggie for breakfast which is my favorite.

The best thing that makes me hum Mr. Bubble's song are, I say to Mr. X-I don't know his name (×_×#-who care for TOEFL ITP certification, "Have a nice day", and to Mrs. X-I don't know her name (º_º)-who care for test fee teller, "May you get well soon" and to Ms. X-I don't know his name too (#+_+)- I give her Oreo Biscuit... ヾ(＠^∇^＠)ノ hahhahha... And Mr. Y-Ah, don't know either (-_-)ゞ-give me such a sweet congratulations. He said, "Congratz, that is not luck but because you have the ability. May this paper bring you to your dream". And I really can't stop smiling after that.

All because of this magic piece of paper which is so precious. Thank You.

And this is the answer for this Thank You My Lord, I believe in Thy perfect plans.. And I wish I could write it for my beloved Listening section problem too, next time.

Thank You, Thank You, Thank You, for this (not) ordinary day.

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Thank You My Lord, I believe in Thy perfect plans.. my Lord... (●´人｀●)

Well, actually it's the result from 24 hours awake test, which I wish it could help me see the world... 八(＾□＾*) ﾀﾉﾑ!! And I remember how I did it my best, even my body condition that time was weak-because of the Air Conditioning, and didn't slept-but I could feel the confidence because I could did it well. So, I made promise to myself that if the score test result could pass the minimum requirement of the scholarship, which is 550 and the deadline of the test submission is 30 April 2013. I will post it everywhere "Thank You My Lord, it's because of Thy helping hand".

Unfortunately, It's less than requirement and the most disappoint thing is it just need 3 points from the requirement. When I first knew it, I said to Mr.X who handled it to me, "Seriously?". (?・・)σ ciyus? Nuuuoooooooo..... Σ(￣ロ￣lll). I rushed to front office to ask what date will the soonest test being held/occur. 

At the front desk, I saw Ms. X in front office has a phone call, and from the conversation I heard, somebody over that phone call want the same thing as me, take the soonest toefl test..Then I realised that both of us were at waiting list for the soonest toefl test at CLC-ITS, 20th april 2013 at 08.30 WIB. I didn't want to miss a thing so I asked her to put my name to on her note. But she said that it would be nice if before friday I came to see wether there's someone who resigned from the test-before the test occur at saturday, the day after it.

When I arrived at home, I sad, of course. But I ask myself, since I don't pass it, do I need to fulfil my promise? Or this is My Lord test for me, when my wish is not accomplished by Him, do I still say thank You to Him? Can I still believe Him? Then I rethink it again, every time I took test, I never get this incredible score! And I didn't took any english classes for this test! I just read the Cliff book, tried to memorize it, did the exercises. Isn't it already be a miracle to pass from 513 to 547? That's why I still say "Thank You" and I still believe Him, disappoint because I am human. But believing My Lord is all I can do since I am a human.

Thank You My Lord, Thou give me patient, Thou grow my confidence toward myself, Thou let me depend on You. Thank You, Thank You, Thank You. I believe in You,（＞人＜*）ォ願ぃ…!!!

God didn't say that life would be easy, but He said that it would be worth it! Don't give in to Satan, shake it off and stomp on the enemy!

And at thursday, I came and I paid and I didn't care if I can't test at 20th april or not, at least I have paid for 4th May test. I was in state that I will used the 547 score for apply the scholarship, I just pray that my research theme is good enough to make the jury allow me to the interview. But Ms. X said that she would contact me by sms if I could join the test at 20th april 2013. Ah, I met Miss Erna, she want to take Jaso Scholarship because now she is post-grad student and has contacted by Professor in Japan but her toefl score is only 480.

Until friday, I don't receive any sms. So at saturday, I went to My Grandmas' home at Jombang. ｡･ﾟ･(ﾉД`)ヽ(ﾟωﾟ=)ﾓﾆｭﾆｭ

At monday, I woke up at 6 am and slept again til 8 am. And I get a phone call which is from Ms. X, she asked me why I didn't come at saturday? I said I didn't receive any sms so I didn't come. And she said that today there's an appendix test that held for 2 person who didn't come yesterday, at 9 am. Hieeeeee.... Σ(￣￣￣Д￣￣￣lll)　ｶﾞﾋﾞｰﾝ

Suddenly I became so lazy, even I have studied it last night, but I just didn't have enough confident and it too rushed if I must came at 9. But Ms. X encourage me to do it and she delayed the test to 9.30 am. So I went.

There I met Miss Erna, she in a rush too. We prepared the test, took the test. The listening part was fine,   it built my confidence, but the structure part was so horrible. ━━━━━━Σヾ(ﾟДﾟ)ﾉ━━━━━━ And the reading part, I run out time and there was some loud music played near the test place. Just lost my concentration and kind of beaten of by the test. w(￣Д￣ w のぉぉぉぉぉぉぉ~!!

But there's one listening question that I remembered because it was so nice. As I remembered, it might be like this:

X : Do you want to sign this congratulation card?

Y : What is it for?

X : Marry get the scholarship and we want to congrats her.

Y : Oh I see, well, she must deserve it. It's Marry after all.

Question : What will the man probably do?

My Answer : He sign the card

Do you know why I love that question? (//∇//) テレテレ

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Thank you for your visit... ♡ (。＞ω<)ノ゛。☆。゜:♫;。

Well, today i sit with one of my friend who has a blog and update his blog-delapanmb.blogspot.com-too. And he shared to me who's visiting his blog, waw i do never try to check that yet （ﾟ∀ﾟ｀）ﾉ ﾖｯ. Since i though the one who visiting this blog, is just me!!! hahahhaa.. I feel that this blog is just my diaries and place for my practicing writing in english, so i never though that there are visitor out there who ever visit here ∠( ﾟдﾟ)/ ｢え｣.

Waw,, i feel kind of grateful that there's someone visit here and read about my post. Even though i am too shy to show my blog to others (my close friends) *but i do show it on my facebook info,, hahaha.. 

And even some of them are from blog of mine, mariabina07.blogspot.com. Seing that i just want to say thank you, and feel free to leave a comment. Can't believe that this blog is the most viewed...

。” ﾟ☆,｡･:*:･ﾟ★o(´▽｀*)/♪Thank You♪＼(*´▽｀)oﾟ★,｡･:*:･☆ﾟ”.

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Inner Beauty?

And I spent my last holiday at 2012, for cleaning my room!! Since I have leave it for almost 10 months in early 2012 and haven’t cleaned it yet, so this holiday is so meaningful for clean it. And I found this, article from my old magazine. Just so sad how I have read it many years ago and still I didn’t do it.

There are 10 points that important, as you see from the title… :p

1.  Focus on our talent, try to acknowledge our talent and show our grateful with developing it.
2. Open our minds*, should know what happen in our surrounding. Even when we are busy, we should know what ‘s on trade now because it makes us easier to talk with others.
3. Eliminating envy, when we envy to someone, it make our relation less cordial to that person. How could we show our inner beauty when we become so evil-not genial person?
4. Stop complain, keep grateful for what we receive. People hate negative person.
5. Set your mood, when we get a bad mood, we makes a problem easily. So, take control of your mood. DO NOT SHARE IT to others, like Mr. Dale Carnegie said: “don’t give a rotten apple to others”.
6. Smile please, smile is the easiest way to show sincere and beauty of our heart.
7. Stand up straight, our body posture is better when we are stand up straight. And also, it shows that we are confident.
8. Wear a sober make up, less is more. Natural is better.
9. Stay tidy, this is the most difficult thing to do from those points. We don’t need to be a “fashion victims”, BUT at least, our shoelace is tied, our dress has no holes, and our hair was combed. My friends ever scolded me because my hair was messy and my face was oily and sweaty like person who didn’t take a bath on the morning. And since then I always comb my hair whenever I arrive at destination, clean my face and smells my self. Hahhaha…
10. Keep clean, when we feels clean, we feel more confident and comfy which makes others happy when they with us. Clean here means, our teeth, our hair, our face, our body, our clothes, our bags, our shoes and the other things.

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Maria Bina Greetings

sushi daisuki

Well, though you'll know my name on my profile but i guess i should give a greetings to introduce myself. And this is my first video that I've uploaded on youtube.

And you may connect with me via facebook, http://facebook.com/maria.bina, but you should be friend of mine first. =D

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